the fear of being boring
The sinking feeling you describe in the last paragraph is so relatable! Though my anxiety sometimes amplifies it in repeating cycles with varying periodicity, so it’s not as easily subdued. Enjoyed the hopeful conclusion!
Great point about interiority in fiction and the fear of overexplaining. Most people have to cut words when they're editing; I often find myself having to add some because a character's thoughts/action, though clear to me, require a bit of extra interiority to become (more?) relatable to readers.
This is very relatable. I think the true adventure in fiction writing is meeting one's tenants. Unfortunately, once I've met them I can forever hear them flushing the loo and slamming doors.